Another lonely weakend. (It's spelled right)

Well here I am back in the place where I grew up. I remember being content when I was a kid. I think. I don't think I was ever that bored. Hold on, before I start a page of babbling you won't understand let me explain the situation. I work during the week at my job at Provisions Company. My job is in Holden Beach so during the week I stay up there with some family, but on the weakends I come back to Oak Island to see my Dad and brothers and to do some general "hanging out". It is only about a 30 minute drive. Anyways the point is that every time I come down here I find myself lonely and bored. I try to call some people, but they either don't answer their phone or they can't do anything because of money issues or a bear trap is stuck to their foot. Here's the question. Why do I become so bored easily? I have some theories for this. Here they are.....

1. I am so swept up in technology and media that a good time means I have to spend money or be going somewhere. Is it really impossible to have fun and do something meaningful in your own home? Maybe I'm hallucinating, but I think I remember being able to do that. Oh where did those times go that I almost remember so fondly.

2. I am dependent on people to have a good time. I find it hard to have a good time when I'm alone. I mean everybody needs some alone time, but nobody wants to be forced to have that time. There's just something about standing around by yourself and thinking of things to do that doesn't really work. Everything I come up with involves more than one me.

3. The inner demons that live in my body come out when I'm alone and kill people. I find myself shivering in pools of blood with a blank memory when I spend alot of time alone. The demons come out when there are'nt other people to distract me from thier voices. Kinda like a werewolf thing, but less cool and more scary.

Either one of those is right or none of them are! Well this does remind me of a quote that J.T. Willwright created in my living room. "You find yourself down alot in life. When you find yourself down do something to make yourself happy. What I do is .........hey do you have any orange juice?" He really is just starting to make no sense these days. Well anyways I'm going to go and find something to participate in. Peace.